2009 starts with Eddy and I putting our new year resolution on paper and putting them together in a small bottle.
The bottle is on my desk right now. (FYI, I'm at work.)
Needless to say, the resolution did not happen.
And after this entry, I will be throwing it out the bloody window.
The year will end in a few hours' time, much to my delight.
I came into 2009 with lots of hope, love and a dream, but it did not happened as such at all.
My life in 2009 has been stagnant and unproductive.
I used to be so ambitious wanting to get a degree, a driving license, travel to anywhere everywhere!
But all I get this year was a lot of waiting, heart breaking, disappointments and even more heartbreak.
This year is by far the worst year of my adult life.
I could have done more.
I should have done so much more but I let myself be trapped into this black hole that I now call my own.
The only things in 2009 that I could actually bring to 2010 will be the life lessons.

Life lesson #1 - Things don't always turn out the way you planned or the way you think they actually should. So don't beat yourself over it, because that's just how life is.

Life lesson #2 - There are things that will go wrong that don’t always get fixed or get put back together the way they were before. So learn to be accepting.

Life lesson #3 - You can't expect anything from anyone. Expectations not only makes you go crumbling down, it will also ruin your relationship with people you care about.

Life lesson #4 - You need a few good friends at work to keep you sane. Only because work can be such a major pain in your behind.

Life lesson #5 - Keep in touch with your friends. I admit that I have not been a good friend this year. But I will try my best not to let you down this year. I'm sorry, best friend.

Life lesson #6 - You are in-charge of your own happiness. So be what you want, do what you want that makes you happy.

Life lesson #7 - Learn to forgive.

I don't regret 2009, don't get me wrong...
I'm just glad it's over and done with.
Now, I'm crawling out of my black hole, still with lots of hope, love and a dream.
:)
I can tell 2010 will be better, simply because I've learned my lesson.
;))
Happy new year everyone!
May Allah keep you safe, sane and guide you to the right path.
Insya-allah.

I will be 'celebrating' the New Year countdown at home while slaving away for my elder sister. She will be getting engaged on 1 Jan 10. Congrats, Kak. You finally reeled him in. ;p

P.S.: I have no idea why I put my picture in this post but i don't care. ahahahah.
ok bye!


Eddy surprised me with 2 tickets to the Singapore Idol Finale last Sunday!
Well, I ruined his surprise by asking him tons of questions and figuring it out for myself.
Hahaha.
Thanks honey!
:))

You know I’ve been rooting for Sylvia since Day 1...
I thought for someone who has never sang professionally before she went to the Idol auditions, she was one of the best in the entire competition.
Sezairi was a pub singer before and I would assume he is a seasoned performer so I didn’t see much of it.
This year’s competition had more strong female voices than male voices.
But most of the female contestants were booted out early.
Can I conclude that for 3 years in a row, the majority of voters are females ranging from 16 to 25?
Hahahahahaa.
Maybe because the only people that were voting, were their family members and friends.
I have no say though because I never voted until the finals.
When the show started, I was already religiously voting for Sylvia.
After both contestants had sung their 3 songs, I changed my mind and vote.

The first song, I thought Sylvia could have done better and Airi did his best.
I loved how he was calm, composed and downright having fun on stage.
The second song, Sylvia spoiled it. She spoiled my one of my favourite song.
:(
She chose the wrong song, I guess.
Airi stepped up his game! I thought he did his best the first song.
But he did even better for the second song!
He won my vote.
So, I voted twice as much as I voted for Sylvia.
He was THAT wonderful.
By the third song, I felt that Airi was already a winner! In just one hour, he had switched my vote. Truly amazing!

When he won, he said something that was really deep:

This Idol experience taught me that people love more than they hate.

That's our Singapore Idol everybody!!!
:))


The person that blew me away was Charice Pempengco!
(Go Youtube and find her please!)
Goosebumps were all over my body when she sang. A petite adorable girl with SOOOOO BIG the voice.
*melts*

Met a few of Eddy’s Idol friends (Thanks Jon for reserving the tickets for us!) but too bad we did not take pictures.
FYI, most of the pictures in my blog are from my handphone camera.
Eddy too slow to upload…

P.S.: Thanks darling for the Iphone!!! You know I love you!

*blows kisses*
















My love horoscope:

You are starting to feel a little emotional over love, Taurus, and this may be the effect of the holiday season. Whether you are single or attached, you could be feeling a lot needier than usual today. You may feel the need to care for others or to have them care for you - perhaps on a very private level. You have needs and you sense the needs of others and fitting the two together well makes it work. Scratch my back honey I'll scratch yours is a good motto for today, as you are just in that mood where if other people aren't meeting your expectations, they won't be getting much from you today. Their problem, not yours, right?





My uncle got married last weekend.
He is now on his honeymoon in Bali
We practically grew up together because he lives in the same flat as I do, only different storey. Plus he is one 6 years older than me!
He was the one who introduced me to music.
Mariah Carey was the first musician I listened to, thanks to him.
I remember vividly always sneaking into his room when he was out and rummaging through all the CDs he owned.
He was more of a brother to me rather than an uncle because of our age difference.
He is one of the influential people in my life.
When he finally got married last weekend, there was this overwhelming feeling.
I couldn’t point out what exactly this feeling was but I was tearing when he made his vows.
I was tearing when he sat on the pelamin with his wife.
I was tearing when they give their respects to my grandparents.
I was tearing when I saw my grandparents tear.
Well, don’t get me wrong…
I AM ecstatic that he found someone who he could spend the rest of his life with.
And the fact that I absolutely adore his gentle and sweet wife, Cik Tini is a major bonus!
But I couldn't help but tear when he got married and I don’t know why.
Well, maybe I’m just so happy for him…



Anyways, on his wedding day, 2 events stood out.

ONE.



My grandparents house was only 2nd storey but we were too lazy to go up and down to find the smallest stuff. So someone suggested to lower down a basket every time someone needed something. hahahaha. ridiculous but ingenious.


TWO.

All of us forgot to make the buah mangga. but in just 5 minutes, my cousin-in-law came back from the markets armed with 2 pineapples and accessories for the buah mangga.
The rest was history. =D







I pray that they will stay together until death do them part, living their dream with lots and lots of kids that I can bully, which will be my cousins.
Hehehhehe!
Amin.


I usually send Eddy a morning sms every time I’m reaching work and this is what happened last Monday:


Me: Good morning Bucuk!
You must be very proud of me today because even though I’m late, I still took the train.
=D
*snuggles*
Hope you have a good night sleep. Love you darling…

Eddy: Good morning Beautiful!!
I’m so proud of you baby!! =))
You deserve lots of kisses..
*muahks muahks muahks muahks muahks muahks*
I had a good sleep yesterday and I hope you had yours too… I love you too darling!! *snuggles*

=D 6 kisses not that a lot la… I want more please!!

I did not receive another sms after that. But I received an email from him…



And shortly after, an sms:

Enough???

Wait wait let me count… =p

A minute later…

183 kisses only??? Hehehehehe… That will do for now. =p Love you baby!
You are the sweetest bf.



So just now he woke up at 3pm! and called me.

Hello Beautiful!

Good morning, bucuk!!! A very very big morning kiss for you, k? *mmmmmmuuuuuaaaaaaahhhhhhks*

Hehehehehehe! Thank you sayang!

Then where is my kiss??

Don’t want to give you la! I need to save my kisses. I give you too much already the other day!




Isn't that idiotic!
pfft.

















Eddy does not celebrate ‘monthsary’.
He doesn’t see it as a need to celebrate our love every single month.
He feels that every day should be a celebration of our love!
Even then, he feels we should give all out to only ONE day of the year, which is 8 Aug.
o.O
Riiiiight…
So for the past 16months
(minus a day because our ‘monthsary’ will be tomorrow),
I’ve tried to remind him of our ‘monthsary’ but it always fell on deaf ears.
I’ve stopped reminding him on the 11th ‘monthsary’.
I used to be so upset and whine and rant and rave like a crazy lunatic when he forgot our monthsary.
But now, no.
Maybe he is right.
Celebrating monthsary is not something we should do.
So the only bona fide celebration we did was for our 1 year anniversary.
Is it normal?

I'm NuruLL.
20 April
Forever 21
msn:
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I'm just a riddle wrapped in a mystery inside a bitch.


Regret comes in all shapes and sizes. Some are small, like when we do a bad thing for a good reason. Some are bigger like when we let down a friend. Some of us escape the pains of regret by making the right choice. Some of us have little time for regret because were looking forward to the future. Sometimes we have to fight to come to terms with the past, and sometimes we bury our regret by promising to change our ways. But our biggest regrets are not for the things we did but for the things we didn’t do and the things we didn’t say.

If you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't need me at my best. :)

Life's too short. To fight. To be miserable. Don't let the bitter ones change how awesome you are.