Pardon me for the lack of updates.
Just felt like going invisible.

You know I have expected this to happen.
But to have it happening on live mode really broke my heart into tiny gazillion and one pieces.
I can literally hear my heart breaking as the words were being said.
Lesson learnt?
No matter how hard you prepare yourself for the so-called ‘unexpected’, it will still hit you like a garbage truck.
And the smell will linger on you too.
Preparing me to hear him say those words did not cushion the fall.
In fact, it made it all worse for the reason that he had proved me right.
*sigh* Oh how I wish I was wrong.
So what would you do when somebody you are so devoted to (intentionally or unintentionally) break your heart?
I instinctively broke his.
I know I was too impetuous. I should have given it some thought before deciding to end things but my only fixation then was the cracking sound of my heart.
He didn’t want me to go.
He tried to convince me that it wasn’t what I wanted but I wouldn’t listen to him and left anyway.
It was just way too hard for me to fathom immediately.
His words pushed me over the edge I guess because the next thing I knew was that I got really sick.

My point of this entry is not to put emphasis on how my heart got broken.
It is to highlight how I broke his.
Even when I broke his heart, it took him a whole day to work out that he could not lose me.
But it took me a whole week to realize it.
Eddy and I are still trying to figure everything out but I hope everything will be alright soon.

I still have hope.
I still have faith.
:)

*blows kisses*

I'm NuruLL.
20 April
Forever 21
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I'm just a riddle wrapped in a mystery inside a bitch.


Regret comes in all shapes and sizes. Some are small, like when we do a bad thing for a good reason. Some are bigger like when we let down a friend. Some of us escape the pains of regret by making the right choice. Some of us have little time for regret because were looking forward to the future. Sometimes we have to fight to come to terms with the past, and sometimes we bury our regret by promising to change our ways. But our biggest regrets are not for the things we did but for the things we didn’t do and the things we didn’t say.

If you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't need me at my best. :)

Life's too short. To fight. To be miserable. Don't let the bitter ones change how awesome you are.