Day Three

A horrible day at work.
I was in tears from 8am -5.30pm, from missing you so much.

I blamed you for leaving. You had a choice to follow your dreams OR being with me and you chose to follow your dreams.
I blamed myself for being rather dependent on you.
It’s like now you are choosing a better option and when things do not go so well, you can always go to your 2nd option; me.
:( You can go back to your ordinary life and think, "well, at least I have you."
So you tell me what’s going to happen when things do go well?
You will get busier and busier and all I will ever get is scraps of your time in exchange for my 24/7 support…
I'd rather be someone ordinary than lose an extraordinary love.
But now it feels like you'd rather be someone extraordinary and have an ordinary love
That’s just not fair.
:..(
What do I get from all this, baby?

I had an email conversation with Aizat and telephone conversations with your mum (she misses you too but apparently she said your dad misses you more!) and Abang Iz.
All asked of my well-being.
Your family members are all wonderful people…
Somehow, they were there for me when I need you the most.
Alhamdulillah…


I went to Vivo City with Azza after work and spent an enormous amount of money for shopping and hair treatment.
That helps. Before I fell asleep, I decided that the day was not a big of a deal.
I just miss you too much, that’s all.
You have that effect on me!
How I wish I can forward to the day that I will be in your arms again.

I love you, baby.

I'm NuruLL.
20 April
Forever 21
msn:
juvenile_jade@hotmail.com
I'm just a riddle wrapped in a mystery inside a bitch.


Regret comes in all shapes and sizes. Some are small, like when we do a bad thing for a good reason. Some are bigger like when we let down a friend. Some of us escape the pains of regret by making the right choice. Some of us have little time for regret because were looking forward to the future. Sometimes we have to fight to come to terms with the past, and sometimes we bury our regret by promising to change our ways. But our biggest regrets are not for the things we did but for the things we didn’t do and the things we didn’t say.

If you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't need me at my best. :)

Life's too short. To fight. To be miserable. Don't let the bitter ones change how awesome you are.