Yesterday after you called me in the early freaking morning… I couldn’t sleep. I cried so hard like as if you are leaving the country for war like that. I felt like stopping you, telling you, “Baby, don’t go...” I know that if I did, you would not have gone and I will be the most selfish bitch that ever existed on the planet! You said you won’t resent me from stopping you from leaving but I know that’s not true. Of course you would resent me because I would too. I don’t want to be the barrier sandwiched between you and your dream… So with a heavy heart, I bid my farewell. Thank God it was a Sunday, my family day. Since my bonus is already out, I’ve treated my family to Hi-tea at Carousel… Half-way eating, my mobile rang; it was Aizat. Aizat asked me if I was still crying for you and told me that you have asked him to tell me that you love me. I can’t believe you made me cry in the middle of eating! Tsktsktsk. You are so sweet, darling. Anyway… I bought a few dresses and tops… One newly cute white dress will be worn when you come back ok! Hehehehe! I also bought a new mobile! Sony Ericsson C905… Its best feature is the 8.1 megapixel cybershot camera! Plus it is pink! The downside is that it is a tad bulky. But it is okay; I hope with that, it will not be easy for me to misplace my mobile… After shopping, my family went to Nyai and Yai house and we chatted. Your dad was wonderful enough to call me at night to ask me how I was, if I stopped crying or not. (What’s with people thinking I will be crying the whole day, man!) And told me that he would be taking care of our chicken until I come by to his house again or until you come back home… At first I asked him, “Uncle, what chicken? I don’t have any chicken!” He answered, “Aiyah, that chicken in Eddy’s room. The one that can die and reset one!” Hehehe! So cute right? It was our tamagotchi la! Hehehe! I came home and at 11.55pm, I tested my wifi and went to facebook and you wrote on my wall. And you wrote on our blog. And there it was. A sweet post before you left. I then cried to sleep. I love you, darling. Be safe.
♥ Myself ♥
I'm NuruLL. 20 April Forever 21 msn: juvenile_jade@hotmail.com
I'm just a riddle wrapped in a mystery inside a bitch.
♥ Feelings ♥
Regret comes in all shapes and sizes. Some are small, like when we do a bad thing for a good reason. Some are bigger like when we let down a friend. Some of us escape the pains of regret by making the right choice. Some of us have little time for regret because were looking forward to the future. Sometimes we have to fight to come to terms with the past, and sometimes we bury our regret by promising to change our ways. But our biggest regrets are not for the things we did but for the things we didn’t do and the things we didn’t say.
♥ Words I live by ♥
If you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't need me at my best. :)
Life's too short. To fight. To be miserable. Don't let the bitter ones change how awesome you are.
