Iam sooooooooooooooo tempted to write about the proposal here..
Good news should be shared!
Right??
It's the sweeeeeeetest proposal story EVER!
hahhaa!
Actually i just wanna brag la, nothing more than that.
hahahahhahahaha!
Will ask Eddy for permission to blog about the proposal.
wish me luck!!!

psssst: I MISS BLOGGING!!








Eddy has been on reservist since last Monday and will only be back on Friday, if lucky.
And it’s Thursday.
I’ve whined and whined to Eddy about his lack of communication this past few days and he tried to make me understand.
I guess I wasn’t in the mood to hear his explanations so I resorted to do what I do best: sulk.
One of the things that he hates most is me, sulking.
We argued until wee hours in the morning and ta-dah!
I received a call from him when I was about to get ready for work.
:))
I'm not sure if he calls because he just wants to shut me up or he really understood my position.
Well, I admit he pampers me too much but THIS i won't budge.
I can’t see any reason for him not to call or SMS me during the day, no matter how buzy he is in camp.
I don’t like the feeling of neglect by my own boyfriend.
I know that it is not on purpose that he chooses to call me only after 11.30pm for the past few days but nothing could make me understand that he is sooooooo buzy to the point that he could not call or SMS me during the day.
I'm not asking for the world.
Just an SMS or call to know that no matter how buzy he is, he still thinks of me.
That's not asking for too much what, right?
It just doesn’t make any sense.
Thank you for putting in effort to call me in the morning, baby.
You have no idea how much it means to me.

Anyways… I was being exceptionally emotional yesterday that I re-read every single email that we have sent to each other. More than 500 emails were exchanged and I’ve actually compiled Eddy’s parting phrases of some of the emails.

The common ones are:
• Love,
• Nak berak,
• Sleepy head,
• I love you,
• Muahks,
• Best regards, (??!!!! That’s only because that was a default in his email)

The grateful ones are:
• Luckiest Guy on Earth,
• Lucky to have the Best, (ehem! ;))
• The Luckiest BF,

The sweet ones are:
• Your life companion,
• Until the day the ocean doesn't touch the sand,
• The only one who truly loves you,
• No one else but you Nurul Huda,
• Kuang2 and Poo2 Dad, (Kuang2 and Poo2 were our goldfishes..)

The crazy ones are:
• Dah Korek telinga tapi masih pekak =(,
• Your BF is crappy, but he loves you because you’re crappy too =)),
• Your Buang terbiat BF,
• Victoria’s Secret, I mean NuruLL’s Love, ;p
• The person who loves to irritate you,

And I noticed a pattern with him..

When he is sad he will go:
• ,
• :(,

When he is mad he will go:
• …,

But the most annoying thing about my boyfriend is that he loves to be better than me:

When I said:
• You’re cheese in my cheese fries,
He said:
• You’re my Chilli Sauce to my McSpicy,

When I said:
• Bluek,
He said:
• Winks,

When I said:
• Xoxo,
He said:
• XOXOXO,





Now I miss him so much already.
:((
Come home soon, my love...
*blows kisses*


Work has been sooooo super duper buzy lately, I can't even stop to breathe!
Peak period is here to stay and I can forsee that I will OT every week from now.
-_____-
Oh, I've signed with the devil on 1 Jun 2010.
I will officially be a permanent staff on 11 Jun 2010.
hurray.
I'm more excited for my gratutity money though. hehehe.
and my performance bonus.
and my organization bonus.
and my other increment.
and my other bonuses in store.
=D

I'm not sure how many people might have already known that I'm going Paris with Eddy.
It's his birthday/anniversary gift from me.. XD
Since his bday(29 Jul) will be on the 1st day of our trip and our anniversary(8 Aug) will be the last day of the trip.
:))
Isn't that soooo romantic??
*dances along to romantic music*
I'm not going with him alone though.
hahahaha.
His mom, Kak Lynn, Abang Shahrin and little Shahzad Eeman will be following as well!
We will all be staying over at Cik Ham's place at Saint Vrain.
But I'm making it possible that Eddy and I travel the whole day just the two of us.
Eddy thinks it's not possible but I don't care.
i don't mind getting lost in the city of ROMANCE....
*melts*
Anyways, thats 2 months to go..

So, I need to work my ass off this 2 months so that they can work without me during my vacation.

I've LOTS to update.
-my recent tiff with Shera.
-Universal Studios Singapore
-many many dates with many many pretty people!
But I'm so lost on where to start so I will end here.
haha.

psst. I'm on twitter now. I will shamelessly put it out there to FOLLOW ME at so_nurull

*blows kisses*


I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
Over the same damn thing


A little update on my life:

Birthday!
- Princess Academy was excruciatingly fun!
- Went to the Pixar Exhibition and had steamboat dinner at home. Mummy made me rainbow cupcakes!
- Surprise Chalet celebration from my <3 and friends...
- Birthday celebration with <3 and his family



I've been buzy with work and life.
but im grateful.
:)


Dear Love,

There's alot of things I understand in this world. And there are many more that I don't.
But you're here with me, and I know I'm not alone.
There are places full of colours, there are places grey sometimes.
But you're always there, to colour mine.
Some fights are as long as weeks, some as short as hours. Never have I doubt,
that its for the best of us.
There are times where I fly, there are times when I fall.
You held my hand tight, pull me up, giving your very all.

You complete me.
Like a missing piece of puzzle.
Like beautiful words to my harmony.
Like my i to the phone. =)
Like my angel to my gloomy world.

To the love of my life, Nurul Huda. Every little thing you have done for me has always been for mine or our own good. And I thank you for giving more than taking. I'm truly blessed to be able to share my thoughts and feelings about anything in life with you. You make me believe that love is real. And I never knew what love means "Until The Day I Met You."

You have showered me with love, dedication and gifts. And it don't matter if I'm a guy but u never fail to buy me flowers too. And that itself has never happened in my entire life "Until The Day I Met You".

Today is another Beautiful Birthday. And I thank god (Alhamdulillah) that I get to spend it with you now and forever in the future. I Eddy Chua have never been happier in my life "Until The Day I Met You".

To love you, protect and make you smile is my goal on life. I may not have the strongest words of prayers for you, but I have the strongest yet the weakest heart to love you. And It never happened, "Until The Day I Met you".

===================================================================
Baby, you are the one and all that I love. I wish you a beautiful birthday. May it be blesssed with joy and laughter, peace and love. I want you to remember that I will be by your side in everything you choose in life. Go for your dreams, and I'll stay by you just like you've always been for me. And I hope you love your gift. You deserve everything in the world cos you the Best GF ever. =)

PS: You're my very own Princess Huda

Forever & Always,
Eddy Chua







Less than 2 years ago, Fuzz'Ny and Ed'RuLL went to watch the movie, Record.
It started slow at first... building its way up to choke you with fear!
I was extremely scared watching the cameramen running for their lives.
This movie is a little like the Blair Witch Project...
Eddy kept everyone at the edge of their seats, screaming at the actors to move away.
o.O
Poor Aini was always shocked by his screamings.
It was really unsettling to watch helplessly as the victims get brutally killed and all the sound effects = Eddy screaming to the movie screen wasn't helping. AT ALL.

Well, just last week we went to watch Record 2 and boy, was it worse!
This time, it did not even start slow! (maybe because we came in 5 mins late. haha)
It was a continuation of the first movie and I really felt like I was grabbed by the throat all throughout the movie. Eddy was holding the nachos and I was so afraid that nachos will fall on my lap. hahhaa. A total roller coaster ride, this one!!

Well... after the movie, Aini was sooooo kind to take me on a ride on her new vespa!
:) Thanks darling! You were a wonderful rider and I'm soooooo proud of you!!!














Aini has always been the one with great ideas for surprises.
After my last birthday surprise, I wanted to return the favour..
She had been there for me all through my ups and very very low downs and I will forever be grateful.

So I planned her 23rd birthday midnight surprise with lots of looooove!
:)

Since I'm not able to do all of this on my own, I've called in her boyfriend, Fuzzy, to help out.
Eddy was on night shift so he could not lend me a hand on this...
:(
Fuzzy and I decorated the playground near her home with lots of candles and balloons.
I proceeded on to stick a note on her door to follow the arrows directing to the playground.
I did the arrows on the cement floor with coloured chalks and I pasted some papers with arrows on the wall as well..

My idea was perfect.
I was to knock on her door loudly and hide.
So when she or any of her family members open the door, they could see the note to follow the arrows... and she will follow the instructions and ta-dah!
She can see the beautiful romantic setting we had set for her..

BUT noooooo....
obviously my plan wasn't perfect.
Her younger brother came home around the time we we finishing up and when he saw the note on their door, he freaked out and called out to Aini who freaked out as well!
(Seriously, babe. All you could have done was to follow the arrows!)
She was convinced that some psycho was stalking her!
Her younger brother and younger sister came down with her armed with a small scissors to check and there you have it!
A surprise from Fuzzy and I.
-_____- She brought the army down to protect her.
What a scaredy-cat!!
pfft.











My mom has been annoying me lately.
She thinks that I am treating our home like some kind of a hotel and that I come back and out as I please.
and when I do come home and tell her that I'm not in the mood to eat, she will nag about how I never liked her food and that she will not be cooking for me anymore.
Yet, every time I come home, she will be telling me she left me some food to eat.

She will be telling me to make my bed before going off to work and every time I don't, she will be screaming on the phone on how I treat her like a maid and that she will not make my bed for me.
Yet, every time I come home, my bed will be made.

And when I come home early, I will spend my time surfing the net in my room, with the door closed. She would open the door a few times, trying to make small talks with me and I will sound so disinterested that she said that I've grown up to be so arrogant for my own good and she plans not to chat me up anymore.
Yet, every time I come home early and spend my time resting in my own room, with the door closed, she would still open the door a few times.
"Have you eaten yet? I left you something to eat on the stove."
"How's work today?"
"Mak went to blablablablablabla."

My mum never gives up on me.
No matter how much I annoy her.
I love you mummy.
I'm sorry I haven't been a good enough daughter.




Okay so, Eddy and I are back on track.
Here are our ‘must have’ requirements before we get our misunderstanding settled:

1) Start a screaming session on how we don’t understand each other. This would involve, hanging up the phone and calling back 53972 times all through the night.

2) The next day would involve the cold shoulder treatment for 12 – 24 hours, depending on how trivial the fight is about.

3) I would be the one giving in, (male ego alert!) asking Eddy why he did not contact me for the whole day. *cue river of tears*

4) Eddy would apologize for being so harsh and proceed on in enlightening me on his rationale and his side of the story on repeat mode.

5) I would butt in about my rationale and my side of the story on repeat mode.

6) Eddy would insist that he is right and I would insist that he listens to me.

7) By the end of the day we had resolved the misunderstanding by simply laughing it all off and saying our misses.


Well, I know our relationship is not perfect but you can’t learn anything from being perfect, can you? That is why the most valuable thing you can make is a mistake. ;p

We live, made some mistakes, learn from them and move on.


To be honest, I’m so confused.
I don’t know what I want in life, I don’t even know what I want right now.
All I know is that I’m hurting so much inside that it’s eating me,
and one day,
there won’t be anymore of me left.
:(


But even with all the hurt,
I feel so blessed to have the greatest friends ever.
love you guys...
*hugs*

I'm NuruLL.
20 April
Forever 21
msn:
juvenile_jade@hotmail.com
I'm just a riddle wrapped in a mystery inside a bitch.


Regret comes in all shapes and sizes. Some are small, like when we do a bad thing for a good reason. Some are bigger like when we let down a friend. Some of us escape the pains of regret by making the right choice. Some of us have little time for regret because were looking forward to the future. Sometimes we have to fight to come to terms with the past, and sometimes we bury our regret by promising to change our ways. But our biggest regrets are not for the things we did but for the things we didn’t do and the things we didn’t say.

If you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't need me at my best. :)

Life's too short. To fight. To be miserable. Don't let the bitter ones change how awesome you are.